getting out of your own mess

I find it very frustrating to watch people around me unable to help themselves get out of their own mess. People should be stronger. Human communication should be simple. No hidden messages, no false hopes, no pretending. But then this is real life, this is the game, and you should be able to keep your player alive and in a good state. I hope you would.

My own mess is still haunting me, hopefully not for long.

Early 30s

• You prefer to stay in on a Friday night, lie on your couch, in front of the TV with good company, cook, have some wine and then drop dead before midnight.
• You don't feel like a loser for doing so.
• Going for a coffee on a week day is considered "going out".
• Staying up after midnight on a week day is considered late and means that you will need tons of caffeine to get through your day.
• Going clubbing is not considered fun - being pushed by people and squeezed in a corner in a place where there is no air and no possibility whatsoever of communicating with anyone is more of a torture than fun. Couch, blanket, wine, good company!
• You no longer live with your parents, and none of your friends does either. You have you own places, some even have their own families.
• You have been past the point where you talk about tiles, paints, furniture, kitchen, bathroom etc. You are already in your flat/house and now you are either into gardening, considering to have a baby or getting a pet.
• You don't worry about where to go clubbing on New Year's Eve. You will probably be trashed before midnight, and then end up at an after party at a friend's house.
• You worry about the money you will be spending on gifts, what to get for your friends' kids, and if you will be able to pay the bills.
• You are no longer pissed off with your parents, you want to see them and spend quality time with them. You realize you might not have a lot of chances to do so. After all life is short.
• You don't think that a 40 year old person is old, after all she/he is just 10 (or less!) years younger. What is 10 years?
• You cannot believe that anyone was born after 1980 - that is too young!
• You don't considering staying pregnant an accident but rather a blessing even though you might have not wanted to have kids.
• Waking up early on a Saturday morning is not weird. After all you have your house to clean and your supermarket shopping to do.
• You know what you want and what you don't. You know what you like and what you don't. And you will not compromise for anything else.
• You are calm and you don't worry about becoming 30, you are already there and enjoying it!
• ............... [Feel free to add if you are in your 30s]

Fake

I have been thinking about fake a lot recently. I am not talking about fake accessories, fake boobs, or fake noses. I don't care about those, it is fake people that bother me a lot, and we have a lot of those around.

Why on earth do you want to make your lives more complicated by not being true, honest and on the point? Why do you play by rules other than those that are the simplest? Why do you keep playing roles in your personal lives - we have to do that in our professional lives, so be true for once! Why do you think about what will be more accepted and then act? Why do you waste your life (and ours) on meaningless shit? Why do you choose your friends, partners, places to go based on how socially accepted these are? ? Where did you learn to be fake and how did I manage to stay out of the game (luckily enough)?

Sometimes spotting fake people is easy, but other times it takes more time and that is when it hurts the most, because you treat them as true, humane entities, and then they turn out to be something soul-less that glows but is empty inside.

So please, if you are fake (and you know it if you are of course - don't fool yourself) don't even consider wasting our time. We have a true life to live and we want to be able to look back with no regrets.

Enjoy the lovelily sunshine by living the day :)

Σε είδα....

Κάθε βδομάδα πιάνω την City τζαι το πρώτο πράμα που ανοίγω να διαβάσω είναι η στήλη "Σε είδα". Μιαν που τούτες τις μέρες λέμε να στείλουμε και εμείς κάτι.

Προς το παρόν ο συνένοχος στο έγκλημα πρότεινει: Θωρώ με κάθε μέρα στον καθρέφτη τζαι ξιππάζουμε. Ως πότε;

Εγώ προτείνω: Σε είδα να κλαδεύεις, σε είδα να κλαδεύεις.

Εσύ προτείνεις;

From the other end of the bar

I was at a bar the other day with some friends wearing my happy mood and talking to people. Then suddenly I spotted a friend from the recent past, he spotted me too, and then we ignored each other. It was as if a stranger was gazing at me from the other end of the bar, I simply smiled and turned my head the other way. We have been doing that a lot lately the two of us - I mean ignoring, in general. The previous times I was a wreck after the "meetings". The other day I didn't mind. It is strange for the kind of person I am (not letting things go easily) but this friend is becoming a memory, and I want him to stay a memory, a good one. So maybe ignoring each other's presence or even existence is what we should keep doing. Because memories should stay where they belong, in the past.

Having said that, one would not believe me if I said that I am becoming a people's person since such a person would not ignore someone. Anyway, ages ago a colleague told me that I look like an IT person - I love my computer and ignore people. Lately I ignore my computer and talk to everyone. Maybe that is my way of ignoring my thoughts? But the thing is that I enjoy it. I enjoy talking to people working in coffee places and bars. I find their work and having to communicate with all sorts of strange/angry/stressed/sick/funny/etc people exciting. The other day I was having a conversation with the guy at the parking place about best places and times to park in Nicosia (he gave me great tips!) and ways to deal with angry people looking for parking. And he was able to deal with my inability to park in the most amazing and stress-free way.

And my inability to park (a recent skill!) reminds me of the inability to keep any plants alive on my porch. Well I have some cactus that are still alive but I managed to "kill" a basil - which I was thinking of turning into mojitos, even though mojitos are made with mint. My new project is to have five more plants by the end of the week and keep them alive at least until the end of the year. I remember watching this movie where a guy working at a rehab clinic was saying that if you want to check if you are ready to get into a relationship get a plant. If it is still alive in six months get a pet. If it is still alive in a year you are ready to get into a relationship. Ha, based on that I am not! Based on reality I am not again! Hypothesis double checked :)

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That smile I kept talking about all summer has helped me a lot and he does not even know that. For some peculiar reason he keeps popping up whenever I am not feeling that great. Can't explain it really, but then again why should I? Simply feel it.

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I want to have a Halloween party at my place. One of those parties we used to have in London where you invite everyone you know and then they invite everyone they know and you end up having a house full of people you don't know, they don't know each other, and are drunk most of the time. But then again this is Cyprus, so what is the possibility of people turning up at such a party, and what is the possibility of people not knowing each other? Hm...maybe I should stay home and have a glass of wine instead, and simply dream that I went to such a party!

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As I am getting older, I am getting older! I think you know you are getting older when you start waking up before your alarm goes off.

Δεν θυμάμαι αν στο είχα πει.....

Κανονικά έπρεπε να νιώθω νοσταλγία όταν ακούω τούτο το τραγούδι. Για τους δικούς μου λόγους. Άκουσα το την ώρα που οδηγούσα και ένιωσα ότι έσβησε τη κούραση της μέρας. Εντζόι!